Who am I and what am I doing here? How often must we ask ourselves this question before we get an answer?
I’m just a person, like you. Trying to figure out my place in life, possibly like you. Keeping a journal has been a habit of mine for the past ten years. Having a public blog is different though (hopefully); I can’t (or shouldn’t) just vomit out everything that’s in my head– better expression and structure and more well thought out entires is what I hope I’ll achieve here.
This blog was born from a breakup, but it has grown and will continue to grow beyond that, as will I.
I love nature and I love rain trees. They are pretty ubiquitous here in Singapore and I love how grand and awe-inspiring they look when you stand under them, their umbrella canopy spreading out in a huge, beautiful intricate pattern of branches. One picture made out of a trillion details and a trillion different perspectives, possibilities. Order in chaos, simplicity in complexity, untold beauty in the commonplace and unity with variety. Life is nothing but paradoxes.
Who am I? I’m me. I wish that were enough, but it’s not. Not for you and not for me either. I need to get to know myself better too. Yet anything I can tell you here is only shorthand, a clumsily applied label, each with the potential to expand into essays detailing the nuances of my relationship with that single label. I’m… female; gay; singaporean; an animal lover; a nature lover; an ex-biology student; a photography enthusiast; a musician wannabe; an artist wannabe; an atheist; an introvert; a daughter, sister, friend… do these labels help? are any of them truly me, are some more me than others? I bet even with more labels, you could still easily be imagining someone who is nothing like what I actually am.
Well, at the very least, all this that I’ve written can tell you that I’m quite fascinated and occasionally confounded by an issue that would seem the simplest and most fundamental: identity. Back where we started: Who am I?
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updated 3rd November 2013